I woke up this morning with a song in my mind & pulling at my heart. It’s a song my 11 year old, Levi, shared with me recently. I’ve probably listened to this song 10 times today .
But let’s back up a little bit. You may have noticed that I haven’t posted anything recently. Its so hard to know how to share this. I promise you this isn’t something I want to share. I want to have it all together, to know all the answers, to show unwavering faith in this time of trial. But the truth is it’s been dark. Very dark.
I don’t know if you’ve ever felt distant from God. As a Christian who loves God it is a very scary, hurtful thing to feel. I wonder if I’ve done something wrong to push Him away. Or am I not strong enough in my faith to feel His presence? Maybe this is a test. If it is a test it feels like I’m failing miserably.
That being said, I have not walked away from God. I still want our relationship to work. I have found that the best way for me to worship right now is through music. I find songs that move me, that remind me that God is with me. Songs that proclaim the truth that God is with me always, whether I see (or feel) it or not. My head knows the truth, but my heart doesn’t. So I will keep listening to this song & others like it, drilling this truth into my head until my heart finally feels His presence once again.
The Son shines even in our valleys,
Rebecca
copyright 2015 Rebecca Sorrells. Used by permission. For more of Rebecca's writings from her heart visit her blog Sonshine Through The Valleys
Thursday, July 23, 2015
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Beautiful song and beautiful post, Rebecca! "Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." Hebrews 11:1
ReplyDeleteGod understands where you are right now. He knows you haven't stopped loving Him.
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Just this past Wednesday I tuned into a program on BBN radio and caught the minister's closing comments saying "faith is not a feeling, it is a choice. Some days I wake and believe because of what I see and other days I wake up and see because of what I believe".
ReplyDeleteFaith is never based upon feelings, but choosing to believe beyond the frailty of my own emotions and limited vision
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Thank you Sharon, Candy and Anonymous, it means a lot when others can read your words, and know that you have seen God's help "beyond the frailty of emotions and limited vision. That accrostic is a wonderful explanation of FAITH, and something I need to apply step by step, day by day too.
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