Moving Forward Step by Step
For eleven months I have turned my television on
around 5 a.m. and turned it off around midnight
each night. I kept it on for noise...someone else talking
in my home. I left it on way past my bedtime because
my husband always stayed up later than me. Going to bed
with it on, faintly hearing it from the bedroom, seeing
shadows and lights on the wall in the hall, has comforted
me over these many months.
around 5 a.m. and turned it off around midnight
each night. I kept it on for noise...someone else talking
in my home. I left it on way past my bedtime because
my husband always stayed up later than me. Going to bed
with it on, faintly hearing it from the bedroom, seeing
shadows and lights on the wall in the hall, has comforted
me over these many months.
In the beginning, it was easy to tell myself he would be
to bed soon, but I knew I had to stop "going there."
Thank God, I am on day three of just an hour or so
in the morning to catch local news and weather, then I turn
it back on in the evening, for about an hour; then I turn it
off when I go to bed!
to bed soon, but I knew I had to stop "going there."
Thank God, I am on day three of just an hour or so
in the morning to catch local news and weather, then I turn
it back on in the evening, for about an hour; then I turn it
off when I go to bed!
This may not seem like a big deal unless you, too, have
had to do this. So, I've taken another turn in this grief
journey, and like all of life, there's no stopping it. Yes, it is
causing mixed emotions, yet, I know I never want to be stuck.
So I willingly go with the flow to wherever and whatever God
has prepared for me. I don't know what it looks like, haven't
seen the landscape; but, I know it will be a good, prosperous place, because He is always working everything together for
the good, because I love Him.
had to do this. So, I've taken another turn in this grief
journey, and like all of life, there's no stopping it. Yes, it is
causing mixed emotions, yet, I know I never want to be stuck.
So I willingly go with the flow to wherever and whatever God
has prepared for me. I don't know what it looks like, haven't
seen the landscape; but, I know it will be a good, prosperous place, because He is always working everything together for
the good, because I love Him.
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